I know it isn't the end of March yet. Two days left till it's April (well considered two more days to go and still counting).
Well, I don't usually talk about months on how it is but it seems like I really need or have the urge to blog about this month's flashbacks. I can't say it's all bad but I could say that it's equally.. like a challenging month to me, YET a tough month I have to endure. Yes, there are also the good ones too. It can't be all that bad. I really appreciate and cherish the good times but let's get back to where I was.
I won't say that I despise this month, or shall I say.. complain until blogger kicks me out and ban me from blogging (nah, just kidding) Pushing that aside, I'm really glad that I experience this roller coaster ride and it has been one of the most scariest, challenging ride ever. Leading me to various of platforms of how reality can be.
Yeah, I may rant most of the time... I'm imperfect, like any other humans too. All of us have feelings, so do you. Doing it out of frustrations but guess what? I'm absolutely grateful to face all these consequences. Without them, I won't be able to know my true friends, the people I met where trust is found visible or invisible, and knowing their true colors after getting to know them for a long time. Are they really your friends or not? Therefore, the cruel world where you face reality, the world is not a safe place and the only way is to be there to take care of yourself. I've learnt to rely on myself and not depending on others because you yourself won't let your guts down.
So what if people choose to leave and go? Appreciate the ones that are still by your side no matter what the outcomes and changes made. True friends won't leave you just because of their changes in life. I've learnt to just live life to the fullest, be me and to stop living in the past. I've learnt to not change for someone unless I choose to change for the better, or just because someone despises you doesn't mean you're living a bad life. I've learnt not to care, to care less, surround yourself the people you love and care for the ones that makes you happy (I'm not trying to be selfish or what but the truth is, the more you care, the more you get hurt for nothing. Plus, there's no benefit the moment you care for someone that doesn't even care for you. Life is worth living if you know how to live your life with your own purposes) Don't call him/her your friend if he/she doesn't even know how to value one but instead, they made used of you until you yourself wake up to reality and discovered their inner self, based on who they are and their purpose of being friends with you. Don't be afraid to stand out. Stand out, don't be someone else's shadow (Quoted by Yi Sin's blog)
I've learnt how to pray. Besides being heartless, (that's way beyond cruel I must say) I learnt to pray for others. To pray for those who have doubts on me, ask for forgiveness and pray for them. Besides cursing (Well, I curse a lot.. I'm going to be brutally honest in this), I've learnt how to pray if one doesn't like me and the list goes on. During this sacrament of Lent, I've learnt how to be a better person, to forgive and to not have doubts on anyone no matter how hard life can gets but hating is not the choice. Praying for them stands out more than cursing. Yes, I'm imperfect and I have many, many flaws too... so many till it's uncountable. I'm trying to be a better person everyday, fighting to be one.. creating my own serenity and happiness.
I've learnt to let go and be happy, be contented and live life to the fullest. So, love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy, but promised it would be worth it. - Anonymous
Last but not least, don't forget to fall in love with yourself first. Never ever hurt yourself just because life's being a bytch. Instead, shower yourself with good food (that's the reason why good food exists in life) - if people's going to call you fat, or criticize on what you eat, eat them up alive. OR wake up and start anew. Why stay in the same, old nutshell? You deserve to be happy and therefore, life's too short to be unhappy. Just let life go with the flow because as the river flows, the direction of the water flows smoothly... (..what am I talking)
Did I tell you that I'm addicted to Guy Sebastian's song called "Battle Scars"? The other day I heard on the radio and it got me so hooked up.
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Meanwhile, today's Good Friday. Blessed Good Friday to everyone of you. Today, we remember God's great love for us. May this day bring new meaning and change in your life.
Take care.
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